life these days feels like a never ending chaos. some days I feel like I barely make it through the day by the skin of teeth. by the end of the day I sit on the sofa exhausted and not able to move, not because I ran 5 miles, but because emotional toll of the days has left exhausted. can I tell you something, I hate that feeling. I hate ending the day feeling like I barely made it through. I detest looking at my planner at the end of the day and seeing blank check boxes out number the checked. I loathe writing the same thing on my to-do list 4 times in a row because I never seem to have time to get it done. i want to make more out of my days. so going back to the basics.
so hello Monday, hello to a new week. hello to new possibilities and new chances. hello to striping everything way and getting back to the basics. hello to the simple and right now moments. hello to a new day and a new month. hello to a new day, a new week, with no mistakes in it. hello Monday.
life has been very interesting...there have been ups and there have been downs and thankfully there have been short plains of brief serenity.
there have been good days, where from the moment I get up, everything just goes along swimmingly and then there are those days...you know the ones where the kids do the exact opposite of what you say and the bad news just increases with every ring of the phone. those days where you're scrounging through cabinets looking for left over Christmas candy and all you can find is some no name itty bitty chocolate santa. those days where you tell the kids you will be right back, you just have face your face real quick, but really you just do a quick ugly cry in the bathroom. well, those have been my days, more often than I would like to admit.
and on those very desperate days when all I wanted to do was just crawl into bed and the pull the covers over my head, I heard His still, small voice say, "I Love you." Those 3 little words were all I needed to hear. Those 3 little words unleashed the floodgates and I poured my heart out to my Savior, my Creator, my Best Friend. He fills me with just what I need to get through the rest of day. He fills me with a hope that things will get better. He pours His love over me and lets me know I'm not alone. He lets me know there will be good days and there will be bad days...it's all just a part of real life.